God’s Greatest Ache

By Tiffany Bretana 
My Child, My greatest ache is to love you. But I could not love you on your terms. Because then you could say, I have earned it. No, My child, I love you with an unconditional love. You did nothing to earn the love I displayed with My grandest gesture of sending My beloved Son to remove everything in your life that you felt would disqualify you from My love. When I formed and created you and made you uniquely mine, unlike another. I made you because it pleased Me to love you. I have so much love to give. I want you to experience My great love that will fill you to the full. I AM the only One who could fill the void you feel in your life. Adam knew My great love for him, as I provided for every need he could ever have in a finished form in the Garden. And just as the sneaky snake made Adam and Eve to believe I was withholding My love for them, by the deception I was keeping something from them, the people in this world have made you to feel that I am withholding My love for you too. You have accounted Me in their likeness. I tell you this is not so. My Son while He moved and breathed on the earth, love personified came to show My great love for you and all humanity. Let My love conquer you. Let My love restore all that is within you. Let My great love for you furnish your every need. Let My great love for you quiet your soul. 

I am Creating a Diamond in You

By Maili Super
As I was praying today, I heard fierce crying from all over the world. I heard the voices rising up and heard the words “When Father?” I saw the vision of a woman on her knees and she was scraping a pile of ashes that was on the floor, into a heap, and she was weeping and weeping over the ashes in front of her.

The Lord showed me this woman had been cut deeply. Down to the very foundations of her being. The Lies the enemy had brought against her, her whole life, from those she loved. Parents, spouses, children, friends and others had spoken against her in the past. She had been beaten, bruised, and left for dead.   

 As she wept over this pile of ashes that she felt was the remains of the life that she held so near and dear to her heart. She felt as though the Lord was far from her, but in reality He was standing right next to her, encouraging her to move forward.  

As the scene panned out I could see her from the Lord’s perspective and all I saw was a pure white light from the Father shining through her. This light was dancing about as it hit every deep groove that had been cut. The Very Light of His son was brilliantly shining through this pure vessel. She was a diamond in the making.
The Lord showed me that the dust that she held so close to her was actually diamond dust. Where this woman thought that all hope was lost through the cutting, the Lord was actually removing the dross that had been cast upon her from the enemy that wanted to cover her in muck, so her light could not shine. The Lord said even diamond dust is of value, and even her past experience no matter how painful are of value.

This is what the Lord is saying:

Child you feel that you have been cut deeply and that you have been broken down to the foundations. I say this is True, but it is because the foundation you were built upon was Not strong enough to support the plan I have for your life. You were built on a foundation of how the world saw you. The foundation I am building is strong enough to support the plans I have for you. 

 I Am Not a God that cuts corners, I Am a Master builder and the foundation I am building you on will Not shift, crack, or break under the weight of what I am building you to be. The enemy wanted to hide you deep in the cave so that MY Light would never touch you and that you would never see what I have really created you to be. You are a diamond and I am cutting and polishing you to create a brilliance so bright that the world can’t help but to take notice.  
Your true love and compassion has caused me to take notice, My Love. I am shaping you into the diamond you were created to be. All hope is not lost for I am bringing life into the things that appear to be dead. The cries of your anguish have hit my ears, child and I WILL bring joy back to your heart once more.

 Ezekiel 28:13

“You were in Eden, the garden of God; Every precious stone was your covering: The ruby, the topaz and the diamond; The beryl, the onyx and the jasper; The lapis lazuli, the turquoise and the emerald; And the gold, the workmanship of your settings and sockets, Was in you. On the day that you were created They were prepared.

YOU SHALL KNOW THEM BY THEIR FRUIT

By Tiffany Bretana

The times we live in are quite difficult. We face battles and threat of wars on different fronts whether naturally or spiritually. But as children of God, we are not unawares of the enemies devices. I write this because there is something on the Lord’s heart that He wants to address in His body. Yes, His body. Many of us, who have chosen to pick up our calls, gifts, and anointings, need to make our election sure.   

2 Peter 1:10-11 Therefore, believers, be all the more diligent to make certain about His calling and choosing you be sure that your behavior reflects and confirms your relationship with God; for by doing these things actively developing these virtues, you will never stumble in your spiritual growth and will live a life that leads others away from sin; for in this way entry into the eternal kingdom of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ will be abundantly provided to you. 

In the above verse, Simon Peter is telling the body of Christ to make your election and being chosen of God sure by behavior that reflects and confirms your relationship with God. One of the things the Father speaks to me quite often, is Tiffany you shall know them by their fruits. Are they bearing good fruit or bad fruit? 

Matthew 7:15-20 “Beware of false prophets, who come to you in sheep’s clothing, but inwardly they are ravenous wolves. You will know them by their fruits. Do men gather grapes from thornbushes or figs from thistles? Even so, every good tree bears good fruit, but a bad tree bears bad fruit. A good tree cannot bear bad fruit, nor can a bad tree bear good fruit. Every tree that does not bear good fruit is cut down and thrown into the fire. Therefore by their fruits you will know them. 

I make NO reputation of myself. My title in the Kingdom does not supersede the fact that I am a daughter of the King first. But, I have seen enough incidents within my lifetime, there are those who use their title to lord it over people, and make mention of it quite often. I am a person of honor, which means if the Lord reveals to me someone is walking in an office, then I will honor them as such, as onto the Lord, without mention. But, the Lord has been revealing much to me lately of those who do not have the fruit to match that which they have been called to. One of my spiritual fathers, said to me, you don’t need to talk about that which you demonstrate. What does that mean to me and you? The behavior, actions, and fruits of a person will match their relationship with the Lord. And even simpler terms, their actions will speak for themselves. In fact, the Lord did not lord it over anyone. If they questioned who He was, He didn’t outright say I AM the Christ, the Messiah, the One to come. He let them receive it by divine revelation. When you are one who has a relationship with the Lord, your actions, behavior, and fruit will be evident. You don’t need to talk about it. Here are two scriptural references of the same account. But notice, in the second account which I included an additional scripture, the Lord demonstrated the authority He had, and it was evident, nothing necessary to be said. He didn’t need to justify Himself to anyone. He let the Father do that.   

Matthew 7:28-29 When Jesus had finished speaking these words on the mountain, the crowds were astonished and overwhelmed at His teaching; for He was teaching them as one who had authority to teach entirely of His own volition, and not as their scribes who relied on others to confirm their authority. 

Mark 1:22-28 They were completely amazed at His teaching; because He was teaching them as one having God-given authority, and not as the scribes. Just then there was a man in their synagogue with an unclean spirit; and he cried out terribly from the depths of his throat, saying, “What business do You have with us, Jesus of Nazareth? Have You come to destroy us? I know who You are—the Holy One of God!” Jesus rebuked him, saying, “Be quiet muzzled, silenced, and come out of him!” The unclean spirit threw the man into convulsions, and screeching with a loud voice, came out of him. They were all so amazed that they debated and questioned each other, saying, “What is this? A new teaching with authority! He commands even the unclean spirits demons, and they obey Him.” Immediately the news about Him spread everywhere throughout the district surrounding Galilee. 

YOU SHALL KNOW THEM BY THEIR FRUIT.      

A Virtuous Woman is a Crown to Her Husband

By Tiffany Bretana 

The Lord had me to perform a prophetic act a few weeks ago. I was worshipping and praising the Lord, and I was FULL of the Holy Spirit. Then the Lord placed someone before me in a vision in the spirit realm. The Lord told me to lay hands on this person in the spirit realm. As I did, I stretched forth my hands, and I felt power leave, and I almost fell over by the sheer power that was released. I asked the Lord, what was that. He said Virtue, and brought back to my remembrance, Luke 8:46 KJV And Jesus said, Somebody hath touched me: for I perceive that virtue is gone out of me. Other translations use the word power.  

The Lord gave me a vision of a woman standing, she’s got a long white dress on with bare feet. The wind of the spirit is blowing through her and all around her. She stands resolute and confident because she knows who she is in Him.  

She went into the secret place to meet with Him, she returned the Bride of Christ, as terrible as an army with her banners. His banner over her was love. 

Terrible is defined as formidably great, strong and powerful, and therefore difficult to deal with if opposed to you:

Upon doing a word study on it. Some define virtue of moral excellence, goodness, noble character, and righteousness. Webster’s 1828 Dictionary which I use a lot, because sometimes you have to go back when a word meant what the word meant, also had other pertinent definitions such as. . . . Power – restraint, strength from straining, stretching, extending that produces effects on other bodies. Legal authority, legal efficacy, power, authority, acting power, something efficacious, chastity, virginity.  

Then the Lord was bringing to me the word virgin, virginity, and purity.  

The Lord says there have been many seducing lips, but she will not follow the words of others above Her Husband, the King. 

Virtue is nothing but voluntary obedience to Truth.  
The heart of her husband safely trusts her; So he will have no lack of gain. She does him good and not evil All the days of her life. Proverbs 31:11-12 

So going back to Luke 8, we see in 

Luke 8:43-48 Now a woman, having a flow of blood for twelve years, who had spent all her livelihood on physicians and could not be healed by any, came from behind and touched the border of His garment. And immediately her flow of blood stopped. And Jesus said, “Who touched Me?” When all denied it, Peter and those with him said, “Master, the multitudes throng and press You, and You say, ‘Who touched Me?’” But Jesus said, “Somebody touched Me, for I perceived power going out from Me.” Now when the woman saw that she was not hidden, she came trembling; and falling down before Him, she declared to Him in the presence of all the people the reason she had touched Him and how she was healed immediately. And He said to her, “Daughter, be of good cheer; your faith has made you well. Go in peace.” 

Isaiah 64:6 But we are all like an unclean thing, And all our righteousnesses are like filthy rags; We all fade as a leaf, And our iniquities, like the wind, Have taken us away. 

Romans 3:10 As it is written and forever remains written, “There is none righteous none that meets God’s standard, not even one. 

2 Timothy 4:7-8 I have fought the good and worthy and noble fight, I have finished the race, I have kept the faith firmly guarding the gospel against error. In the future there is reserved for me the victor’s crown of righteousness for being right with God and doing right, which the Lord, the righteous Judge, will award to me on that great day—and not to me only, but also to all those who have loved and longed for and welcomed His appearing. 

Matthew 10:8 Heal the sick, raise the dead, cleanse the lepers, cast out demons. Freely you have received, freely give. 

The Lord is saying when My Bride, the church, stops in her acts of self righteousness, I WILL heal her of her unrighteousness, knowing that her righteousness is ONLY of Me, then VIRTUOUS POWER will flow through her. She will freely give what she has received. She will be the Triumphant Bride of Christ. 

WISDOM WILL PROMOTE YOU 

 By Tiffany Bretana

“Prize wisdom and exalt her, and she will exalt you; She will honor you if you embrace her.                              Proverbs 4:8 

Did you recognize her when she was in your presence? Did you cast her away because she came in the form of a woman, or another? Or because she didn’t seemed as seasoned as you, when He the Lord has said childlike faith is required? Or her stature was not as great as your title, or in your own eyes?  

There are many in the body who need to catch this, some as a warning, some as edification. The Lord says He gives wisdom liberally without hesitation. He didn’t give a distinction of what that vessel would look like: older, younger, male, nor female. The Lord has been made to be our wisdom. Look how he dealt with those in the Bible. Before you touch someone with your judgments be very careful before you cast it. 

I give this story as a testimony, an evidence, and not a general rule. I became acquainted with a gentleman. I did not follow my lack of peace because I thought I was just being fearful and I did not want to let fear rule my life. So I allowed him to communicate with me via messenger. He seem quite impressive. And honestly, He seemed to line up with a prophetic word I had received of a divine global connection. Until, later on, when he kept speaking about how his call as a prophet of the nations was different then what the word prescribes. The Bible states in 1 Corinthians 14:3-4 But he who prophesies speaks edification and exhortation and comfort to men. He who speaks in a tongue edifies himself, but he who prophesies edifies the church. He said his call was to bring and cast judgment on leaders of churches. That did not feel creamy to my spirit. And if anybody knows me, I have a perpetual learning spirit. People who want to learn, ask questions. It’s just a part of their nature. We’re teachable. He took it quite offensively when I asked him about what he had declared his call was against what the Bible says, especially in the New Testament. He then would in turn get quite upset and call into question who I was in Christ and my position in the office of the prophet. I told him my intentions quite extensively and that is when he apologized. That was occurrence number one. I don’t really remember the second occurrence. But it went along the exact same lines. But the third, will be forever etched in my memory. He started off saying to me I needed to submit to his authority. I was praying in tongues this whole time, and seeking the Father while he was speaking. And I said to him, honestly, I’m sorry I can’t tell you what the Father has not given me to say. He then started to berate me again. And said you better ask God because if you don’t submit to me, you will be cursed for not submitting. Ok, I’ll be honest my heart was pounding out of my chest. I didn’t want to be cursed if I was to submit. But the Father didn’t say anything to me to tell him. So I had to say once again, I’m sorry but I can’t tell you what the Father has not given me to say to you. He was livid, continuing to speak other things to me. He hangs up on me.

My prayer before the Father. Heavenly Father, if I’ve done wrong let me know that I may immediately repent and apologize. I asked the Father for wisdom in this matter. 

The Father told me that this man was being a Saul like with David. Then He also reminded me that even Saul was anointed of God. I said to the Heavenly Father, Saul was your anointed and David did not touch him, so I choose out of my will to forgive, release, and bless him. Heavenly Father please deliver him from this as I do not want him to touch or hurt another with his words or actions. Continued on with declarations, binding, and breaking his word curses over me. 

Next, the Father gives me a vision, He shows me that He the Heavenly Father has just removed this man’s mantle and placed it onto me. I start crying because it is and was not my intention to take anything away from anyone. I just wanted the Heavenly Father to speak to him and deal with him, just as any child would want their Daddy to do with their sibling when they’re mistreating them. But what shocked me was how a matter of factly the Holy Spirit wanted me to deal with this man. He told me to ask him, so how is the supernatural weight loss going? I sent him a text, and I said this may not be a great time to ask this but the Father wants me to ask you how is the supernatural weight loss going? He did not take kindly to me asking, but you always obey your Heavenly Father.

You see, I had prophesied over this man many times some really awesome and great things that the Father spoke through me. On one occasion, the Father revealed to me that his Facebook profile picture was hindering him from finding his desired wife. The Holy Spirit revealed that the profile picture was of him on his wedding day of his previous marriage. He changes the pic. I thought that was that. Oh boy, the Holy Spirit says tell me to tell him that the picture he has changed it to is not a true depiction of who he is now and that if he wants to have supernatural weight loss he will have to drop all the condemnation he has received from his ex and his family. If he needed to scream, cry, shout it out to do that but he needed to release and get rid of all the condemnation he had received. 

So at a later date, after the man had lost his mantle in the spiritual realm. He tries to contact me but My Daddy God didn’t raise no dummy. I was not going back for the fourth helping of what he was dishing. But he related to me in text message that he’d drop 15 lbs supernaturally, and was continuing to drop weight. I thanked and praise God for that. 

But the wisdom in this is this, the Holy Spirit in you is your Heavenly Father, the Holy Spirit in your brother or sister is your brother and sister. You always listen to your Heavenly Father. And let’s say if you miss it, the Heavenly Father is gracious enough to reveal what He really said, IF YOU ASK. And He is more than gracious to confirm a word when you need the reassurance. I prefer another source to confirm a word that the Father has spoken to me when I need the reassurance. 

Heavenly Father, increase our discernment, wisdom, and understanding in these last days, that we may do your will on earth as it is heaven. Bring us confirmations where we need them and we’ve missed it, correct us that we may be found in Your will. 

in Jesus’ name! Amen 

Here are some scriptural references:  

1 Kings 13:1-32, Matthew 7:15, & 1 John 4:1 

IN THE WAITING . . . . . 

By Tiffany Bretana

In the waiting, don’t let it be a waste. There is order and preparation that is necessary for the manifestation for that promise you are standing for. If you were to stay stagnant in the wait, then when you receive the manifestation, then comes the issue of did you prepare yourself for keeping or maintaining it. One of my mentors said the pressure of maintaining success is greater then the pressure of gaining success. I’ve heard of accounts where people received a miraculous healing, to lose it because they didn’t have the foundation of faith to sustain it. Or what about that marriage restoration, did they return to their old ways of doing things, that it maybe for nought. Or what about a wealth transfer, would you spend it on your own desires or for His purposes by His leading and guidance.  What about having a full time ministry, did you learn about the inner workings and dynamics of the ministry.  All these things are organic living breathing things.  What do I mean by this? Things are constantly changing. The pressures of today are not the same as the pressures of tomorrow.  Ex:  Remember the days when if you wanted to have a conversation with someone, you either wrote a letter that you had to put a stamp on it and wait for a response or had to put a quarter in a payphone to answer a beeper or just make a simple phone call.  

He who is found faithful in the little, will He not give you more? 
There is also the notion, preparing the hearts of others involved or apart of the promise. God is working all things together for your good. God is always on time!!! 

I don’t know where you are at individually, but the Lord placed this on my heart to write. There are many things that the Lord has placed in my heart, but I make it my pursuit to ready myself for the manifestation of the Promise(s).  

What does this look like for you? Ask the Father, He’ll tell you. What it looks like for you maybe completely different than what that looks like for me.    

I am by no means advertising any certain ministry or person. I am a promoter of Jesus-the Answer.  

But for the one seeking marriage restoration, did you learn to love or respect your future mate?  

For the one seeking the finances, did you learn Kingdom principles of managing finances. 

What about the ministry, did you learn the different aspects of the ministry, whether online or the four walled building? 

Let the Holy Spirit guide you. God bless you! When you succeed, we all succeed!!! 

ONE BODY, ONE KINGDOM, ONE IN HIM!!! 

Tend and Keep Your Garden 

By Tiffany Bretana

The Lord is saying, I have commissioned your mouthes, I am the Lord of the words out of your mouthes. I have commissioned your mouthes to preach, teach, and speak good things, the Good News, the Gospel. I have not commissioned idle words. I have given you My voice on the earth that the angels may hearken to. I have not told you to speak as Egypt-the world, but I have brought you out from that. I am the High Priest over your confession of faith. Tend and keep your garden, Speak the word only that I have put in your mouthes.  

Psalm 81:10 “I am the Lord your God, Who brought you up from the land of Egypt. Open your mouth wide and I will fill it. 

Proverbs 12:14 A man will be satisfied with good from the fruit of his words, And the deeds of a man’s hands will return to him as a harvest. 

Proverbs 18:20 A man’s stomach will be satisfied with the fruit of his mouth; He will be satisfied with the consequence of his words. 

Proverbs 13:2 From the fruit of his mouth a wise man enjoys good, But the desire of the treacherous is for violence. 

Hebrews 13:15 Through Him, therefore, let us at all times offer up to God a sacrifice of praise, which is the fruit of lips that thankfully acknowledge and confess and glorify His name. 

Matthew 8:8 But the centurion replied to Him, “Lord, I am not worthy to have You come under my roof, but only say the word, and my servant will be healed. 

James 3:2-10 For we all stumble and sin in many ways. If anyone does not stumble in what he says never saying the wrong thing, he is a perfect man fully developed in character, without serious flaws, able to bridle his whole body and rein in his entire nature taming his human faults and weaknesses. Now if we put bits into the horses’ mouths to make them obey us, we guide their whole body as well. And look at the ships. Even though they are so large and are driven by strong winds, they are still directed by a very small rudder wherever the impulse of the helmsman determines. In the same sense, the tongue is a small part of the body, and yet it boasts of great things. See by comparison how great a forest is set on fire by a small spark! And the tongue is in a sense a fire, the very world of injustice and unrighteousness; the tongue is set among our members as that which contaminates the entire body, and sets on fire the course of our life the cycle of man’s existence, and is itself set on fire by hell Gehenna. For every species of beasts and birds, of reptiles and sea creatures, is tamed and has been tamed by the human race. But no one can tame the human tongue; it is a restless evil undisciplined, unstable, full of deadly poison. With it we bless our Lord and Father, and with it we curse men, who have been made in the likeness of God. Out of the same mouth come both blessing and cursing. These things, my brothers, should not be this way for we have a moral obligation to speak in a manner that reflects our fear of God and profound respect for His precepts. 

Hebrews 3:1 Therefore, holy brethren, partakers of the heavenly calling, consider the Apostle and High Priest of our confession, Christ Jesus, 

Hebrews 3:1-6 Therefore, holy brothers and sisters, who share in the heavenly calling, thoughtfully and attentively consider the Apostle and High Priest whom we confessed as ours when we accepted Him as Savior, namely, Jesus; He was faithful to Him who appointed Him Apostle and High Priest, as Moses also was faithful in all God’s house. Yet Jesus has been considered worthy of much greater glory and honor than Moses, just as the builder of a house has more honor than the house. For every house is built by someone, but the builder of all things is God. Now Moses was faithful in the administration of all God’s house, but only as a ministering servant, his ministry serving as a testimony of the things which were to be spoken afterward the revelation to come in Christ; but Christ is faithful as a Son over His Father’s house. And we are His house if we hold fast our confidence and sense of triumph in our hope in Christ. 

Hebrews 4:14-16 Hebrews 3:1 Therefore, holy brethren, partakers of the heavenly calling, consider the Apostle and High Priest of our confession, Christ Jesus, Seeing then that we have a great High Priest who has passed through the heavens, Jesus the Son of God, let us hold fast our confession. For we do not have a High Priest who cannot sympathize with our weaknesses, but was in all points tempted as we are, yet without sin. Let us therefore come boldly to the throne of grace, that we may obtain mercy and find grace to help in time of need. 

The Great I AM 

By Tiffany Bretana

THE LORD IS SAYING IN THIS VERY MOMENT. . . . . . I AM…… not that I might be, not probably, not maybe…….. I AM.  

RISE in FAITH, My sons and daughters. I AM, I AM EVERYTHING YOU NEED ME TO BE. My names do not include the words maybe, might be, hope so. . . . . I AM all that I AM. I can not stop being all that I AM, for if that was possible the world and everything created shall cease to be. I sustain all things by the Word of My Power. I STILL and FOREVER sit on My Throne. You are made in MY LIKENESS, not I in yours. RISE UP MY SONS & DAUGHTERS. Speak with the authority and power I have bestowed on you. I said PUT ME on, clothed in RIGHTEOUSNESS. FULL OF GLORY. MY BLOOD HAS NOT LOST IT’S EFFICACY.  

Speak to those mountains

Rise up healed and delivered

See the battle that’s already been won. 

Take the hill and the mountain

Declare Peace Be Still to that storm. 
Be done according to your faith.  

My finished work at the cross still has the same power to save, heal, deliver, meet your need, restore that one that you’ve been praying and interceding for.  

As I am writing this the Lord had me to look at the clock, 4:20 pm EST and knew which scriptures He wanted me to post.  

Romans 4:20-24 But he did not doubt or waver in unbelief concerning the promise of God, but he grew strong and empowered by faith, giving glory to God, being fully convinced that God had the power to do what He had promised. Therefore his faith was credited to him as righteousness right standing with God. Now not for his sake alone was it written that it was credited to him, but for our sake also—to whom righteousness will be credited, as those who believe in Him who raised Jesus our Lord from the dead— 

Here’s a worship song to go with this post:  Hillsong United – King of ALL Days

MY LIFE IS MY SONG TO HIM 

By Tiffany Bretana

My song I sing is to the One, 

To whom My heart was won,  

I sing the song that is in me,

is the one He put in me, 

I’m sorry I don’t sing along with you, 

What He did, you did not do, 

My eyes are closed focusing on the One to whom I sing.

Psalm 104:33 I will sing to the Lord all my life; I will sing praise to my God as long as I live. 

Psalm 96:1 Sing to the Lord a new song; sing to the Lord, all the earth. 

Psalm 13:6 Yes, I will sing to the Lord because he has been good to me. 

Isaiah 42:10 Sing to the Lord a new song, Sing His praise from the end of the earth! 

We as Christians can sing many songs onto the Lord, it becomes a new song when the words are the exact, exactly the thing the Lord has been and is to you. I sang a lot of songs onto the Lord while attending church, but when the Lord quickens the very words in the song, of that is what He has been, done, and is to you, it is a NEW SONG that you sing onto the Lord.   

Intimacy with God Starts with Surrender 

By Tiffany Bretana

Seven years ago, I had one of the most painful situations in my life occur. My husband left me. This is not something I like to mention, because I’m more focused in what the Lord is doing in my life and is going to do in my life, then what has occurred to me. Testimony versus trials and tribulations. We glory in Him, Christ Jesus. 

 But during that time 2010, I was born again in 2003, but I still didn’t know know God, only what I heard about God, take the Israelites for example with Moses. You can’t live a life of intimacy with God by what you hear about Him from others. I would say I would be what they called a carnal Christian at that time. I knew about salvation for eternal life, but not salvation for the here and now, and everyday.  

During the time, I didn’t see a way to keep living at that time. I had two little children, a stay at home mom, and I had NO income. I lost a lot of family and friends during that time. I was broken. I was connected with an online ministry at that time, while attending the local church, but with no fellowship. But the online ministry, I was connected with kept speaking about taking the Lord as my Husband, my Provider, my Source, and my Security. These were very foreign concepts to me. You see, we read about how God was these characteristics in the Bible to the people in the Bible, and I was one of those, who said or thought to myself, why would God want to be that for me? But I remember one night, I was crying out to the Lord, and I prayed to the Lord, I NEED YOU….. I need you to be my Husband, I need you to be my Source and Provider, I need you to be my Shield, I need you to be my Protector, I need you to be my Everything. A humble and broken-hearted, He will not refuse. It was during this time, that I immersed myself in the Word of God. Any avenue I could, I would put His Word in my eyes and ears.  

But it was during this time, that God would quicken things to me through His Word. He was ordering my steps. And yes, there were times, reading the Word that it was still like stale bread to me, but even then what you partake of then will He breathe on it at a later time. But it wasn’t until He started breathing on His Word to me that it was the fresh daily manna that was giving me new life. A divine exchange was occurring. I was laying down what others and I, myself had said and done to me for what God was saying and doing for me.  

Isaiah 55:8-9 “For My thoughts are not your thoughts, Nor are your ways My ways,” declares the Lord. “For as the heavens are higher than the earth, So are My ways higher than your ways And My thoughts higher than your thoughts. 

Surrender is not just a once a lifetime occurrence, it’s a moment by moment occurrence.